It was like this yesterday, and the day before. It never changes. I just want it to be over with. Why can’t they just go. We won, they didn’t. When all of this started I was all happy and everything. Now, I just want to go home. When I look out of the portal I try to see it. It’s just so far away. And then I wake up and the dream starts all over again.

Sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, twenty. Good, now I got enough to get that CD. I wonder if Candace is gonna get hers. I don’t think her mama will let her because of the warning label on the cover. I don’t think sneaking it in the house will work because sooner or later they will hear you playing it, and then… I’m not trying to get on punishment for any of my girls.


I’m not scared of him I just don’t want to fight. Fighting is like the last thing I need on my record. I’ve been getting good grades for a whole semester and I’m not screwing that up for nobody. I might just run as soon as I get out. I can hear my heart beating in my head, man I gotta get outta here. I better stop taing to myself before somebody thinks I’m crazy or something. Maybe if he thinks I’m crazy he might leave alone.